This morning I stepped on the scale and it told me that I weighed 86kg (189.6 lbs). On my 168 cm (5'6") frame that puts me in the obese category according to my BMI. It has also been almost 3 months since I had my baby and I'm exclusively breastfeeding. Looking at the tabloids that means that I should have lost all the baby weight already.
Kendra did it in 8 weeks, I've already gone over that limit.
Kim lost 50lbs- that's 20 more than I have to lose!- in only 40 days.
According to this, I should be losing about a pounds per day. What does it mean if I'm not losing any at all?
Or at the very least 5lbs per week
Kourtney at least took 6 months to lose her 44lbs but I know I'll never live up to the flawless stomach shown there even after weight loss.
I looks like they're putting me in the loser category
No way will I live up to Kate's standard. She's going to bounce right back!
My doctors tell me that I'm obese. I need to lose weight. They never once looked at my body fat percentage. They roll their eyes at me when I say that I work out 5 times per week and that I eat healthy. When I ask what can I do to help with my knee injury, they tell me to stop eating.
The Healthy at Every Size movement tells me that it's impossible to lose weight. They say that I should be happy no matter where I am. But what about my knee injury that is exacerbated at higher weights? What about the ovarian cysts that I get every time I'm about 30lbs overweight? What about my parents who both have experienced back pain and high blood pressure?
The weight loss industry tells me that I shouldn't have any excuses. I should work through the pain. I should calorie count even if that does make me hyper aware of my eating choices to the point that I obsess about food.
My friends tell me that I should just diet during the week day. That's enough and their sister lost 30lbs doing that. Some tell me to stop eating grains that will make the weight melt off. My nutritionist says I'm not eating enough grains and tells me to cut back on eggs.
The lactivists tell me that I shouldn't worry about weight loss yet. They say that I need to maintain my supply. They say eat until your full. They also say that breastfeeding helps you to lose weight. For who? I always have helpful friends who share their experience where they couldn't keep the weight on during breastfeeding and were "eating like a pig". I always love it when us women are compared to livestock.
My trainer tells me that I'm strong that I can lift more than my husband. My husband says he loves and still finds me attractive. My baby looks up at me with her big brown eyes and I see that she is nourished. My oldest daughter tells me that she likes my fluffy stomach because it's better to lay her head on and sleep. I need more people like them in my life.
Disclaimer: The issues with the doctors actually happened during my previous weight loss journey but I used them here to illustrate a point that so many women often deal with.